Please, allow me a moment of your guys' time. I need some advice, and please, feel free to criticize me as well, I am prepared for it. :p I'm gonna make this as short as possible.
Almost a week ago now, I took my grandfather down to the hospital. We were sitting in the room for a while and I needed a cup of coffee. So I proceeded to walk out of the room and up to the nurse in order to acquire about my caffeine fix. She smiled, got up and began to walk with me. She offered drip coffee, or the cappuccino machine, I chose the machine. As we were walking, it seemed that we began to form an instant rapport. Either that, or she's just kind to everyone, after all, it is her profession, I understand. Anyways, the machine turned out to be broke, in return, she offered to make me some coffee. This struck me as being very nice, I mean, she obviously didn't have to do this. So I go back to my grandfathers room, and a few minutes later, she brings in my coffee, with cream sugar etc. And I thought to myself, holy shit, this girl is an absolute sweetheart. She didn't have to do any of this, but she did, and that meant a lot to me. A few more minutes pass by, and they take my grandfather into another room to run some test. So I go back out to the lobby and ask for the TV remote. She comes back in to help me look for it... And than asked me if I'm doing okay. It just seemed very personal how she acquired about the current state of my feelings, I was impressed with her qualities as a human, lol, seriously tho, I was. A little while later, I sneak outside for a cigarette, FAR away from the building, in a dumpy ass neighborhood mind you. I'm standing there, looking at the stars, thinking to myself and whatnot.. And I say, damn God, is there anyway you could arrange it so that MAYBE I could, I don't know, ask her out, give her my number, something? Literally, I turn around to walk back towards the hospital, and there she is, obviously making her way home (on the phone as well). She stops, we briefly speak about the condition of my grandfather, and then go our separate ways.
Fast forward to today...
I decided to call the emergency unit of this particular hospital, where she works, and ask her personally if she had any info regarding the status of my grandfathers follow up appointment. As soon as I got somebody on the phone to be transfered to her, I fucking lost my nerve and hung up! Obviously, I'm concerned for my grandfather, but that's really only half the reason I called. I guess I just wanted to keep me in her mind, when and If I was able to run into her again. The thing is... I was just impressed by her as a person, it's not everyday you meet someone with these kinda qualities. And I guess I was just hoping to know her, on some level, that's all. However, I'm obviously nervous and clearly afraid of rejection. So my question for you guys, and especially GIRLS, is this... Is this something a person should just let go? Do I have nothing to go on here? As a woman, would y'all be freaked out if you were in her position? Jeez, I don't even know... but I told myself today, if I can't find the balls to at least call a girl, than how am I going to have the balls to accomplish great things with my life.
Thoughts?
Shoot me straight and be harsh, I can take it, I think, lol..
Damn Lawrence, that was deep. I almost teared up.
